Ephemeral

"But what does that mean - 'ephemeral'?" repeated the little prince, who never in his life had let go of a question, once had asked it. 
"It means,'which is in danger of speedy disappearance.'" 
"Is my flower in danger of speedy disappearance?" "Certainly it is."
[Excerpt from The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery]

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DEATH. We all know what death means but unless you experience that life is too short, you began to worry. Recently, our city has faced a tragedy which killed about a thousand people and hundreds are still missing. It sent chills down my spine. People you have seen the other day gone...forever.  My friend is one of the victims of this tragedy and they were lucky that all of the family members were safe but then for the next few days his dad died. The night before the flash floods happened, we had our Christmas party with parents. We enjoyed ourselves and I remember his dad participated in a game and they won. That was the last time I saw him and I can't believe the next time I see him, he's inside the coffin. His dad died because of viral infection and I think it's the virus you get from rats' waste which is known as leptospirosis.  I feel sad for my friend, he's an only child and we are graduating this coming March, his dad must have wanted to see his son go on stage. Now, there's only him and his mom left. As I think about it, life is really short. (His dad was only 50 years old). With this, I can compare life with Pandora's box. It's full of not-so-great-things but in the end there's still hope. I know that this will make him a stronger person. Pain is not so bad at all because once you've been through it, you will know how to handle the rest.

Life is short, they say. This is a complete understatement. We read or see this often but do we really take it to the heart? As we look through the past, what have we accomplished so far? Sometimes, we need to look back in order to thank God for how much blessings he has given. Death is our life's final destination and before we reach there, we should have at least shared our love and time for others.

Term Paper

I've been facing the computer for the whole day and it's been a while since I've done this. I have this really awful migraine. I feel like my head is going to explode. Deadline for Chapter 1 - 4 is tomorrow and I have a bad feeling, I'm not really confident about my paper. So help me God.

College.

Time flies so fast.

My freshmen memories feel like they just happened yesterday. Now, I'm in my senior year and uncertain of what lies ahead. I'm somewhat scared and excited. From what I heard, college is fun and stuff and our teachers keeps insisting that college will bring out the best in you. You will learn how to be independent and all. That's what I suck at, being independent. I'm really dependent in my parents. I think it's because I'm the youngest in the family. Even in the simplest things. When I know, my parents are there..I become lazy easily and I don't know whyy.

I've already decided what course to take and the school. My parents were hesitant because the course is not really that common and only few schools here in our hometown(oh, scratch that I think it's the only school that offers it here)so I've suggested that I'll go to another place and I'll be living in a dormitory. So what happened? My parents were in a rage. They've lectured me for like the whole time and they keep saying that I can't live there because I've grown up being pampered and I don't even know how to do this and that. They've also had a rant about financial issues that we might face. I almost cried, thinking of how useless I am. I just held it back in. But God was so good, I prayed asking Him to guide me and lead the way. I know He has all the right answers and TADAAAAAA....They already agreed!

I'm just waiting for my CSAT results. I'm also not sure if I did well in that test but I just a 60 above percentile rank. Dear God, please hear me out. And oh, there's still our research paper, the golden ticket to graduate. I'll be having my exams this week and long tests on Computer, Accounting and Trigo. So help me God. Too many things to do, and I'm still procrastinating. I need your prayers!

Until my next post.

│hazelisatree│

I feel lonely and I don't know why. Maybe, I just miss my friends. This summer was very unproductive for me. People are taking review tests for college while I am just here doing nothing all day and stare at this fucking laptop. To be honest, I'm quite not ready to be a senior yet. Time flies just too fast. I feel...unprepared. I'm not even sure what course I would take or which school I'm going to. I hope I could decide as soon as possible. I hope God will guide me to the right path. Please pray for me. thanks :)

SHAMLESS PLUGGING.

OH MY DEAR GOD. I've never actually done this my whole life. If only not for our grade, I won't do this. I need to this because someone from the other group does this a lot and I think nothing's gonna happen if we don't do this thing. But at least this is better than actually telling them in person, funny thing is there are also other junior student who are promoting theirs and we're just liking back. LOL. i hope we get a good grade though. I made an effort to borrow my dad's camera and it was kind of hard for me. I feel like I'm over abusing my dad but anyways I LOVE HIM FOREVER. So this is the end of my shamless plug rant. Till next time mates!

GEOM time!

I super love my seatmates! when you're with them, you'll never get bored. Among the four of us, Andrea is the most silent but she's funny in her own way and definitely adorable! :)

Happy(?) New Year

Time heals wounds. I just need a little space.